She knows that she has been crazy for a few days

But surely, he can forgive a crazy few days – for she stayed calm for many years

She knows that she said a lot

But does he know that she says because he doesn’t at all?

She writes and she rants because she can

But does he know that she does it because he doesn’t at all?

He knows the pain coz she talks, she feels his pain coz he doesn’t

His closed eyes don’t fool her, not for a second

They don’t hide the love, nor the pain

He doesn’t let her in, but she’s not fooled, not at all.

 

She has been broken, she has been shattered

She does know that she isn’t the only one

She talks and she writes and she cries and may be that carries her through

She knows he does none of that; so wonders what carries him through

She knows that he gets rid of her; taking a piece at a time

For his sake and hers

May be he knows not she would have stayed quiet, even if he didn’t

As she will stay quiet, now that he has

Coz she just had a few crazy days, but a few quiet years

 

She wishes that he never felt that he would fail her

She wishes he could let her love for both of them

She wishes that he knew that he would be enough for her

For one day, for one week, for then and forever

 

Her despair in her face and in the shiver of her limbs

That never stilled since the day he said that was it

Though she knows he is sane and that is how it should be

But then she was a crazy one, who was careless in love

And he always thinking, the one careful in life

 

She went to all places that remind her of him

He was there with her, though not there for a moment

She did that for herself and also for him

She could be there, he could not

and that is how it should be

 

She is broken, she is shattered and every such feeling

She will not let his love break him

No, coz she loves him

If anything his love holds her and hugs her tight

If anything his love keeps her from going to bits

If anything his love makes her shine from within

If anything the unbearable pain will make her stronger

 

She is broken but she will not let her pieces fall by the wayside

She is shattered but she will get the shards to reflect a beautiful light

She may not own him, she may not see him

She may not hold him, she may not breathe him in

The thought kills her but she will be alive, as alive as she can be

She wants him to know, that his love will not kill her

If anything, it will beautiful as he is

If anything, it gives a higher meaning to her life

His love doesn’t make her smaller, but grow taller, if at all

 

She hopes that he can be happy knowing this

She cherishes the hours that she had in his life

Coz he gave her those hours, of his own free will

She has never begged him, or may be just once

She has no pride, no ego, no shame in love

She just loves, like he does

Her ways may be different but she knows his love

She will just love him the way he wants to show his love

 

He may show up, he may not

She may not own him, she may not see him

She may not hold him, she may not breathe him in

She needs no stars, no ride to the moon

His love has been enough, and will always be a boon

She may beg him as she has no pride, no shame

He can say no, doesn’t matter, she will love him all the same

 

 

She is broken, she is shattered and every such feeling

She will not let his love break him

No, coz she loves him

If anything his love holds her and hugs her close and tight

If anything his love keeps her from going to bits

If anything his love makes her shine from within

If anything she will love him for now and forever

And may be hope for a life after, where he will be hers